days and days crying do not help to change that. Things do not move an inch. The choice is difficult: to go on a road that we do not know but all facing difficult or stop now (just as tough road for us)? So far we have heard gynecologists, psychologists, priests ... each has its say. Objectors (and priests) stress always that chance that they know where in addition to the difficulties there are beautiful things. "... I know a girl who graduated, as well as well ... some of the difficulties can not be excluded, but I know a family that gets along very well ..." Always isolated cases ... "Of course every case is a story in itself ..." Say everything immediately after the exact opposite ... We are helping in this way. Would stop for us, the choice more tragic now, but maybe in the long run would be that would not hurt. But you must have the courage to stop. Also add the beliefs, principles ("Well, I see that you are of sound principles then ..." priests must carry water to their mill in these events), that aura of religiosity that surrounds you even now ... even if for me now, religion has a very limited weight in the selection criteria. Because of choice, even if it is bad to say, it is. Choose to live differently from how you've designed, eliminating your life, or choose to stop your child being born ... for fear of suffering, for fear that you may not be height, for fear ... life is made of choices, but this is certainly one of the most atrocious. And time is little to choose ... we select the five months it has abbligati to move forward ... and then the only thing left and hope that things are better or for someone / something has decided that it was only a joke and that the pregnancy will stop by itself.
needed results arrived ... quickly ... Trisomy 21. It means Down syndrome. There remains the accumulation of fluid under the skin, what in medical jargon is called edema ... is now extended to the upper torso. It may also affect internal organs, but not necessarily.
"Normally the baby down without complications what is not known ultrasound ... so my baby will have complications ... ah, because it's a boy ... I was told that the girls were giving less problems in these cases ... and then, and rightly so Nature wants it to be male ... so as not to spare anything. A quick ultrasound to check my heart ... is too small, but it seems that there is a thickening of a septum. "It 's classic children down with heart disease. .. but is solved with an operation shortly after birth. "Sure ... what do you want to be parents ... complications from heart surgery in the brain?" Now we can not know "... But there ' is the risk? ... "in these cases there is always the risk ... hypoxia heart problems can come at any moment ... and the brain can be damaged, but it can happen to a child only Down ... anyone with heart disease risk. "My son could then until now ... and all the risks have turned into cruel actuality ... what can I expect any good?" Good luck, if you need us here ".. .
God has decided that the scapegoat for the problems of the world must esseremio son ... this is the explanation that I am giving you ... You can be angry with God? ... For now I am ... and too much! You can not do that to a child ... is not right! And you know it! And now you can not even go back ... not that make me feel like shit who kills his own son!
ultrasound control after CVS ... "BCF CRF present ... ... 13.6 corresponding to 13 weeks + 5 nasarca ... ... ... plausible cystic hygroma cystic hygroma ... well put ... generalized edema subcutaneous soft tissues ... yeah, okay ...
does it mean? "Her gynecologist did not understand?" ... yes, I said that there could be chromosomal abnormalities ...
"... in fact frequently trisomy 11 and 18, which are incompatible with life ... with life in the womb ... in the sense that the heartbeat is today, but could disappear in a week. .. it is better to monitor it. However, first we need to see the results of CVS ... "said that it takes typically 3-4 weeks ... it is only 7 days" the results could be ready early as next week "...
gynecologist had said that if there are big problems and results will come in 2 weeks ... I suppose at this point that what I consider an important part of me to have these big problems ... I wonder why God allows nature to be so cruel .. . I wonder what will happen ... I wonder many things ... no replies! And I do not even have the strength to cry.
one believes that a child has to wait only source of joy and happiness ... then the first ultrasound the doctor, usually talkative, become silent ... Unexpectedly ... and then the heart starts to beat faster, as if picking up what will happen ... "It is better to do tests to study the situation" ...
Why?
Because there is a value out of the norm ... Have you ever heard of nuchal translucency? Yes
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The resulting value is high ... there is a higher risk than normal if the age ... Amniocentesis or chorionic villus sampling
better ... what are the risks? Chromosomal abnormalities, Down's syndrome in a nutshell ... and then my heart almost stops beating, the stomach asked to throw out what you ate for lunch, the legs sag and you need to force a chair ... better than a bed to lie down for not faint. But we must be strong.
does not mean that your child is sick ... there is only a higher risk ...
what is this risk?
33% ... in these cases, one in three have problems ...
the report speaks of U.S. bilateral cystic hygroma ... and then start Internet searches ... and it looks like down syndrome may be the lesser evil in such cases. E 'right to know in advance what to expect? yes ... CVS and then ... and 4 weeks of agonizing waiting, nervous ... for a response which we hope does not confirm the sensaszioni that are growing in the rate at which the belly grows ... even faster sometimes.
the first week has already flown ... and the fear and the desire to have the result ... and then what? I do not know ... I always thought that if it happened to abortion would not be placed among the plans to be implemented ... but now this certainty is no longer the same intensity. Selfishness? likely ... but the children are suffering a great injustice ... I do not want my child to suffer. I do not think to be so strong ... Do not even think to be so strong to kill him.
I only fear.
